Even in
famine they will have
more than enough.
Ps 37:19
Lately, I
have been thinking about "enough"
and
choosing to believe I have that quantity.
It applies
to every area of life.
Having
enough of something means that it
fully meets
our demands, needs, or expectations.
If we don’t
have enough, we can seek more of it
or change
the way we perceive it.
It is one
thing to need more of
something
vital to our well being—
more rest,
health, time with friends, time alone.
When we are
out of balance,
we must
make adjustments.
But not for
the sake of more…
maybe just
for the sake of wholeness.
Because “more”
can be a taskmaster.
It is
primarily a comparative word,
and
anything which depends on comparison
ought to be
handled carefully.
This past
year has been a transition year that
often left
me feeling like I needed more.
Of
everything.
Much of
what I had known was uprooted,
and it left
me feeling empty.
The only
thing in abundance was darkness.
There were
times I could only stare into the night,
waiting to
have hope, waiting to see light.
My focus
was on lack and I definitely needed time
to make
some adjustments to all that happened.
During that
time, He continually assured me
that His
grace was enough for me.
One night I
looked up and saw the moon
as it peeked through the
trees, and I thought,
that is
enough of a promise for me right now.
He
overcomes our own darkness
with the
smallest flicker or
with the
brightest flame.
Either way,
it is not dark anymore.
And I have
enough.
Enoughness
is a condition that only I can define.
It says
that what I have is sufficient to satisfy.
When I look
ahead through a speculating lens,
there is
never enough to handle all
the
scenarios my mind is able to create.
Most of
all, there is never enough grace.
Because
grace only knows the present tense.
When I look
at the past, there was always enough.
My
challenge is to pull those lessons into today.
But…what
about…what if?
There will
always be the test of now.
I want to
get better at not only living in the now,
but
believing I have enough for now,
especially
as it applies to grace.
When I
focus on this moment
and the
enoughness that it holds,
I can
practice gratitude, giving, loving,
and
breathing.
I am at
peace.
And that is
enough for me.